Tormented Love...

Why am i waiting right here...
waiting for the return of something dear...
it's not waiting... not for me...
i don't get it what the hell is wrong with me...

everything... out there...
has something waiting, somewhere...
don't know... what's wrong...
seen your face... it's been so long...

I am... sitting...
waiting for a time when we can be together...
i can... stay here...
waiting for you is something i will do forever...

i must... go on...
doesn't matter how much my life is so wrong...
can't stop... to think...
what the hell, what's up now, at the brink...

something... has changed...
eturnal love... it is, my fate...

i don't know why...
but something has changed inside of you...
i don't know how...
but i can't find what i can do...
i don't know when...
all this changing happened so...

i have my faith in love...
i believe it's here because...
i know that life... empty...
with love it is so happy...

i will not wait anymore...
there's nothing there, i cannot find it...
i will not wait no more...
that something was, but our love tore...

what's going on... i don't understand...
i still love you, always will...
what's gone wrong? i cannot tell...
something happened, what the hell?

i thought our love... eturnal...
why am i so gullable...
i thought we were to-gether
for e-turn-a-ty...

but i'm wrong... but why?
i don't see this anymore...
i can't tell... what's gone on...
i don't care, i just want you...

i don't know... what's wrong...
i don't know what has become...
i can't see... this is...
something lost and yes it is...

i want to wait in love...
sit in pain, and wait just 'cause...
i believe... you're here...
in my heart whispering in my ear...

i can't tell anymore...
i can't feel the truthful blur...
i can't fall further...
there's no where left i can go...

what's gone on... something?
what has changed, please let me know...
what is wrong??? somewhere?
i can't understand this pain!

i am here waiting...
waiting for my pain to heal...
it won't go...
until i know what's going on...

i'll turn my love... my pain...
i'll make it churn, i'll make it change...

i'll burn my love... to hate...
i'll make it harden... in my heart...

i'll end this pain... just 'cause...
i can't take this anymore...

i'll make it go... somewhere...
i'll seal it off and then i'll be free...

free of pain... free of love...
free of everything because...
once it's sealed...
there, is no coming back...

it's over! is it?
it has ended! no, wait when?
you are gone! tell me why?
you are always, yes so wrong!

and so i cry... alone...
and so i wait right by the phone...
wait for you, to call and let me know...

that we're still one, together...
that we'll always be the same...
that we can be... everything...
that in that there is no pain...

and so i wait... alone...
alone is always... forever...
what has changed, somewhere inside of my heart???

I CAN'T FIND... ANYTHING...
NOTHING HERE TO HOLD LOVE FOR...
YOU HAVE GONE... LEFT ME WAITING IN THE SAND...

i can not find... tomorrow..
i can not wait... forever here...
i can not hide... my hurt...
from the world anymore...

I Am ...

i am waiting here...
deep inside my sorrow...
waiting for the time to see what's never been...

i am sitting here...
waiting for forever...
hoping that someday our love will live once more...

i am standing still...
lost in thought about you...
wishing for a time we've never had before...

i am thinking how...
how to find the answer...
how to be with you, loyal forever more...

i am sleeping now...
sleeping with dreams of you...
dreaming how we could be and why it's never been...

i am waking now...
gonna have my coffee...
wanting to be looking deep into your eyes...

i am waiting now...
waiting for forever...
wishing for a time we've never had before...

i am dreaming now...
dreaming of the never...
wishing you were here and we were together...

i am talking now...
talking about loving you...
talking to myself, some think i'm crazy too...

i am waiting now...
waiting for the answer...
hope i find it, hope you're with me always still...

i am hoping now...
hoping for your presence...
presence with me so i can be happy now...

i am waiting now...
waiting in my sorrow...
waiting for the time that's never been before...

Alone in Love...

today i stand alone...
i await the return of my love, alone...
i hold her in my heart, yet i am alone...
i've come to know my love, alone...

the darkness of the void...
the greatness of the nothing...
the vastness of infinite space...
is all the entity of being alone...

not to be alone...
but to stay alone...
now that, my friends...
that is love...

mayhaps someday my love will find it time to return to me...

until that day...
let it be known...
that i will stay...
in love... alone...